My weekend was full of losses. Lost money on Friday, lost the softball game on Saturday & nearly lost my mind on Sunday trying to figure out WHY THE HELL DO I KEEP ENDING UP AT HARLEM NITES APT!!!

Most of my life i've struggled with the flesh. I smell it or even see it & i'm stuck in a bad relationship for at least six months. Break up with a gal. Start missing the flesh. Go back for a quick fix. Stuck for another six months. I'm a weak, shallow, pitiful excuse of a man . Fortunately for me I'm not the only brotha that suffers from this illness. Thats right. They are more of us out there . FEA(Flesh Eaters Anonymous)

Now I bet you guys are wondering if i've spoken to Hot Mama after that nose dive of a night. The answer is. Yeah. She actually called me . Wanted to know if I was feeling okay. Awwwww wasn't that tweet NOT!!!!!! Why couldn't she have said " I know your packing Big Daddy Slish. I could have paid more attention to your needs instead of my own. Lets say we get together this Saturday and try this all over again." But reality bites me in the ass as usual." She says " Maybe its for the best and we just stick to public displays of affection. Lay man's terms FRIENDS THAT DON'T F@#%K !!!!!

So I called that woman I met on Friday night. Conversation was kinda cool. I proposed a meeting of the minds amongst other things. She somewhat accepted. Since her situation is very very complicated. I put the ball in her court. SIKE!!!!! if I did that we'd never go out. I will be calling her tommorrow. Cause thats what stalkers do.


Took Church Mouse to a BBQ and then to the movies yesterday. It was nice to hang out with a woman without the pressure. Should I kiss her, does she like me, do I like her, should I call her tommorrow. With Church Mouse its always been so cool. I've taken her to weddings & social gatherings. She's like the perfect date . She can mingle with the best of em. Why doesn't she have a man ? I dunno. But if I had the power. That would change.

Gotta Go Def Poets is on