Outsider

I've always felt like an outsider because my parents have been married for over 35 years. Most individuals i've come into contact with have never experienced that kind of union or understand what it means. When they visit with my parents their jaws are wide open in awe of the kind of relationship they have.

My mom is the Firecracker. I've seen her break plates throw pots even stay in her room the whole day because my father has not given in to her every whim. My dad is a rock, the voice of reason, his powers of perception astound even me. I remember one time while I was still living at home. I was sleeping with this chick that was married. One night she came over for her usual love injection from the Slasher. After we tussled under the sheets. I walk her downstairs to the front door, open it, kiss her softly on the lips, and close it behind her.

Slish Sr happened to be in the kitchen reading his newspaper. I walk in there, open the fridge and pour myself some orange juice. I sit down next to him. While he's still reading he says" Slishy where is that young lady from." I look around like he's talking to someone else " Excuse me" Slish Sr " Heh Heh when since yuh start date married woman" I spit the orange juice out of my mouth, wipe my face " H H How did you know that! " Slish Sr" You think I was born yesterday. Problem with you young people is you think everything you do now ain't been done before" I start laughing " No for real pops how did you know that?" Slish Sr responds" For starters she only comes over at night and its always on a Thursday" I got up from the table, walk over to the sink and place my glass in it. I turn around and bow down to my pops. As i'm walking away he says " Your mother and I didn't raise you that way. What you're doing is wrong. What if that was your wife." I didn't respond because I knew he was right. I hoped to be married one day and didn't want this kind of karma in my life so I quickly ended that relationship.

One of the problems i've always had is that I am extremely critical. When I hear about a situation that would cause my mother and father to cringe. I'm quick to say" Thats some Bullshit! Grown Folk should know better!" But what I'm really doing is alienatng myself because what I consider to be dysfunctional others consider normal and appropriate behavior.

Being raised in a middle class two parent household is probably one of the major reasons why I haven't been able to take the plunge into that happy place. I cannot and will not accept dysfunctional behavior. I was taught to nip shit in the bud before it gets out of hand. So if someone tells me " Yeah her husband used to beat her waaaay before they got married" My response " Why her dumb ass marry him then" or He got 4 kids with 3 different baby mamas" My response " Dude need to get a vasectomy!" I rarely take pity on people who are constantly walking into walls. My advice to them!

Get a new pair of glasses and some head gear cause that wall will come tumbling down. You should at least give yourself a fighting chance.